#1 Welcome to my blog

    This blog will be about pretty anything that comes to my mind. It's one of many attempts to actually write a regular "internet journal" and will probably die soon. I want to try once again because of that mysterious need to put my thoughts into silent words. Not that I expect anyone to read this, that's extremely rare, to be honest, haha.

    Anyway, let me introduce myself. My name's Aleksandra, and I've been living on this planet for 18 years. I don't have friends, don't talk much (like if I had anyone who could understand me even a little bit) and probably suffer from social anxiety. Also I don't drink and I'm asexual. Yeah, perfect material for our society. All of it hurts, it really hurts. I can't even smile back to a boy (what if it was a smirk?!)

    I live in Poland but I plan to move abroad (yet I have no idea where I want to live eventually. Everywhere, I think). My english isn't perfect, I'm still learning and I make silly mistakes, so excuse me.

    My mind wanders so far away from reality that too often I lose connection. My dreams and thoughts are my life and that probably slowly kills me because I don't focus on the real world and my responsibilities. People and situations are usually mean to me and I have no idea what I'm doing wrong, therefore the circle of isolating myself continues. I try really hard to change the way my broken personality works but it seems I'm unable to escape my self-deprecation and the fear of opening to someone.

    That's all for now. See you again sometime.